Wednesday, December 3, 2014

ugh, ugh, ugh!

This is going to have to be short and sweet since my son needs the computer for a Spanish lesson in a few minutes.

So, Thanksgiving, ugh.  I was doing great, I had a plan, it was all good.  Until we sat down to eat and there was an empty chair where my dad would normally sit.  The pain hit me hard and I had a horrible ache in my chest.  I made an excuse about going to the pantry to dig out napkins, where I allowed a couple of tears to escape.  I sucked it up, buried my feelings, and tried to numb the pain with food.  That pretty much explains the last couple of days.

It didn't help that we had two sick pets, which we ended up burying last night.  Two!  Those little critters just worm their ways into my heart so when we lose one, or two, it devastates me.

I was laying in bed this morning watching the rain hit the window feeling crappy thinking about how awful I feel and how to numb the pain, with what I was going to eat of course.  Suddenly, I am not even sure what drove me, I jumped out of bed, turned on the shower and hopped on the scale.  I am up a couple of pounds, I expected it, so it didn't really bother me.  But this is where it stops!  I took a hot shower, made a cup of coffee and ate a point friendly breakfast and tracking it.  Even my 0 point coffee, everything gets tracked today!  The craziness has to end.  Eating and binging on *bad* foods is just going to make me feel worse.  I don't want to feel worse!  I have skipped the gym the last couple of days too, which makes me feel even worse.  No more, I am getting back on my 5 day a week gym schedule.  Exercise always makes me feel better and more determined.

I am planning on having a good food day and ending the week with either a maintain of last weeks weigh in or a loss.  I can do it!  I just need to stay strong and stick to my plan. 

Monday, December 1, 2014


My shingles are so much better.  I am convinced that the antiviral that the doctor gave me made a world of difference.  I still have some pain, but nothing like I was expecting.

So there I was on the road to wellness, on the mend, feeling much better.

And BOOM, I wake up this morning with a cold, bleh.

My ears are clogged, my throat hurts, I have an unusual cough, and  I feel weak and fatigued, ugh.

This is just so UNFAIR!  Whine, whine, whine.

Going back to bed with a hot drink now...